“I want my living to amount to a kind of artfulness. Is that too much to want? It shouldn’t be; it shouldn’t be.” -Billy-Ray Belcourt, Coexistence*

In all my attempts at beginning, I have pursued perfection. Coherence. I would like to start somewhere beautiful enough that I might never be forgotten. The reality is that I am starting from contradiction: I fear just as much as I hope. I want to be held but do not want to be seen. I want beauty but attempt to control it. I resolve to start with less: less words, less explanation, less effort. This feels like an act of faith.

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